I currently hate my I/T job and want out but can't afford to leave yet.

I'm one of those people that wants to work in an inventor's workshop all day and just make things. I've got sketches of handmade wooden tomes, small scale power generators, and any number of both art items as well as functional things.

I also want time to write, time to learn an instrument, time to think, time to do those things that I do because they come from inside not forced from outside.

Does any of this make any sense?

A number of years ago I gained a certain amount of awareness of my own creativity and have tried to nourish that where I can but with this job and things the way they are I'm losing that part of myself again and I'm kind of worried that it'll go away again. Frankly it scares me quite a bit. :-(